(Warning: This post contains spoilers for Tuesday’s episode of “This Is Us,” titled, “Songbird Road: Part One.”)
“This Is Us” offered up a seriously dark family reunion during Tuesday’s episode, “Songbird Road: Part One,” when the Big Three were introduced to their Uncle Nicky (played in the present by Griffin Dunne and in the past by Michael Angarano) — Jack’s younger brother who they definitely all thought died in Vietnam, because that’s what Jack told them their whole lives.
It turns out that explosion we heard at the end of the midseason finale in November was the result of Nicky “fishing” with a little Vietnamese boy, by throwing grenades over the side of a small rowboat. When one landed inside the boat rather than in the water, Jack’s little brother was unable to get the child out in time — but did dive out to save himself. The little boy died and Nicky was sent home from the war, catatonic, before he could tell Jack it was an accident.
Jack was unable to forgive Nicky for this moment and ignored his postcards — addressed from Clark Kent — for years, until one day when the Big Three were preteens, he drove to meet his brother in his trailer just a few hundred miles away in Bedford, Pennsylvania. Jack had a short, awkward chat with Nicky before telling him he could no longer contact him, as he had a family now and wanted to move on. He then left, and though he briefly considered turning back, he ultimately chose to shut his brother out from that day forward, leaving the Pearson kids to go find him as adults on tonight’s episode, when they discovered his existence all these years later.
While Ventimiglia’s character may be dead and unable to answer for the lie he told his family — and why he told it — TheWrap was able to speak to “This Is Us” co-showrunners Isaac Aptaker and Elizabeth Berger about what Kevin (Justin Hartley), Randall (Sterling K. Brown) and Kate (Chrissy Metz) learned when they met their uncle tonight — and when they returned hours later to find he was about to commit suicide, what Rebecca (Mandy Moore) will learn about her brother-in-law on the next episode, and when fans will learn what the heck is going on in the future timeline.
Read our Q&A below and check out what Ventimiglia told TheWrap about the episode here.
TheWrap: The next episode — based on this one being called “Songbird Road: Part One” — I’m assuming is called “Songbird Road: Part Two.” Where are we going from here in that episode?
Elizabeth Berger: Yes it is. (laughs) It is really a two-parter.
Isaac Aptaker: And we’re going to directly pick up literally in that moment where they arrive and see him sitting there with the gun and see what our siblings decide to do with their uncle. And we also see how Rebecca reacts to this news. They’re obviously going to fill her in, and tell her that they’ve found Nicky, and he’s alive in this trailer. And she is going to have many a question and want to see this man. So we’ll be exploring the effects that this revelation has on the entire family.
Berger: Yes, and we’re also going to be dealing with sort of how our adult siblings and Rebecca grapple with learning information about Jack and Jack’s past and his history with his brother that they had no idea about, which is obviously going to leave them a little bit shook up.
Aptaker: Yeah, they’ve all really learned that their father has been telling them this pretty major lie for his whole life.
TheWrap: And does Rebecca in particular feel betrayed knowing what she knows now?
Berger: I mean, I think she always knew there was a part of Jack’s past and this history he did not want to delve into. And I think a part of her always knew there was a lot going on beneath the surface she had no idea about and she sort of accepted that because it seemed to be what her husband needed and he was such a great husband and father in so many ways. But I think it’s still obviously very painful to deal with the reality that there was more going on than she could have even dreamed about.
TheWrap: Are we supposed to believe now Jack never told anyone about Nicky?
Aptaker: Yeah, I think it’s safe to say if he’s not confiding in Rebecca this is something he’s kept to himself.
TheWrap: And that was the last time he ever saw Nicky and ever spoke to Nicky?
Berger: Yeah, in our minds that was sort of the end of that chapter. It was the end of Jack getting the letters, it was the end of Nicky keeping tabs on Jack. It was such a painful interaction for both of them that they both really went in separate directions in a whole new way from that point on.
Aptaker: Yeah, we see in this episode that Nicky doesn’t even know that Jack’s passed away, so we get the sense he’s stopped sending any kind of correspondence or keeping up with how Jack’s doing.
TheWrap: Nicky is presumably about to take his own life in the end of the episode until the Big Three show up. Is that because he found out Jack is dead? Is it the emotion of meeting his niece and nephews for the first time? What is it that pushes Nicky to that?
Aptaker: Yeah, I think it’s all of that. I think it’s a really, really complicated wave of emotions washing over this guy who is not all that equipped to handle them and not the most mentally stable person to begin with. Learning his brother was dead, learning he’ll never get any closure there, that Jack will never know that what happened was an accident, really knowing that he has this family and has never been a part of their lives, never gotten a chance to know them. It’s just, you can imagine, it’s a wave of all kinds of emotions — bittersweet, sadness. And it’s just too much for him to handle.
TheWrap: Are the Big Three going to bring Nicky back to Rebecca or is she coming to him?
Berger: That you will have to wait and see, but Rebecca is definitely going to get a chance to ask Nicky questions and to sort of delve deeper into exactly what the past was like between Jack and Nicky.
TheWrap: Will we go back in time and see what Nicky has been doing this whole time since the last time Jack saw him?
Aptaker: There’s no immediate plans for that. But you know our show, we love to jump around and to pop into random times. So that’s not to say we won’t in the future.
TheWrap: Sterling told me last week that by the end of the season we should know why they are going to see Rebecca in the future. Is that correct? And how soon are we going back to the flash-forward?
Aptaker: Yeah, Sterling is right. (laughs)
Berger: Yes, we don’t want to say exactly when we’ll be in that time period again, but we will be revisiting it within the season and we will be giving more answers. So hopefully we’ll be revisiting it in a very satisfying way throughout the season.
TheWrap: OK, so before the end of the season and when we go back to the future again, will we be seeing a future version of one of the characters that we haven’t seen an older version of yet?
TheWrap: Is it another member of the Big Three, possibly?
Aptaker: Maybe? We know people are very, very excited to see how they all turned out in the future. We have it all planned out. But it’ll be appropriately really satisfying in passable time — but I’m not gonna say what happens.
TheWrap: OK, back in the present day timeline, how long will it be until Kate delivers the baby?
Aptaker: Yeah, if you look at our seasons, in our present day stories we tend to follow a pretty typical calendar. So if you count when she got pregnant that puts her due roughly toward the end of our season.
TheWrap: Last week’s episode we ended with Randall finding out he’s won the Philadelphia city council race, and we didn’t have a lot of time to process that this week because of the Nicky stuff. So will be be coming back to that soon and will we see how that affects Randall and Beth going forward? Because people are still concerned about what’s happening with them in the future timeline.
Berger: We’re definitely coming back to it. We’re going away from it for a couple weeks but then we’ll be back. And yes, definitely, now that he’s actually won this thing it’s not like the schedules of their lives are going to get any easier. If anything they are going to get only more hectic so of course we’re going to see you know how this affects their marriage and how they approach figuring out a balance to Randall’s work life and his home life and Beth searching for her new job. So there’s a lot brewing for the two of them.
TheWrap: Jack almost went back for Nicky after initially leaving and then didn’t — but Kevin did decide to go back after they had left. And Kevin has no idea his father was considering going back. Why did Kevin make the decision to return when his father couldn’t?
Aptaker: No, he doesn’t know that his father did that, but I think it speaks to the bigger picture of how Jack and Rebecca raised their children. What I love about that moment is, here you have an episode where a lot of people I think are going to be pretty frustrated with Jack and how he abandoned Nicky and can’t look back. And I agree, that’s a very flawed decision in a flawed human man. But what speaks to what Jack did so right in a much grander sense is he raised his son Kevin, who didn’t make the same decision, who couldn’t leave a family member there like that in what he perceived to be real peril. So in the bigger picture sense, Jack was able to raise children who didn’t repeat his mistakes and one-upped him in a sense. In a very dark episode there is a real optimism and hope to that that was important to us.
TheWrap: If Jack had known that what happened with Nicky that was an accident — because he wouldn’t really let Nicky talk about it or explain — if Nicky had told him and if they had that conversation, do you think Jack would have changed his mind and things would have gone differently between them?
Aptaker: Good question.
Berger: That is a good question. Obviously, we don’t know for sure and it’s really hard to say, because I think even if Nicky had spoken those words, it’s so hard for Jack to exist in gray areas. It’s sort of one of his only shortcomings as a man is that things are really black and white for him, really good and bad. And I think it was such a painful chapter of his life with so much horror and heartbreak and disappointment in himself that he wasn’t able to turn Nicky around that I’m not sure having heard those words would have ultimately made that much of a difference. But I don’t know.
Aptaker: I agree. I think it’s just as much about Jack feeling his own failures to save his brother as it is about what Nicky did. And Jack is a guy who compartmentalizes, he closes parts of himself off as a survival mechanism to move forward. And I don’t think he had it in himself to reopen that part of his life and that relationship without just totally crumbling.
“This Is Us” airs Tuesdays at 9/8c on NBC.
65 Biggest 'This Is Us' Tearjerker Moments - So Far (Photos)
Now that we're in the fifth season of "This Is Us," the only thing Pearson-family fans can rely on more than the fact that they're sure to get at least one twist or turn when they tune in each week is that they are definitely going to shed at least one -- and usually more -- tear per episode. TheWrap has rounded up the show's biggest tearjerker moments -- both good and bad -- so far. Obviously, spoilers ahead.
How Randall became the third triplet Even before the big time-jump twist was revealed on the pilot of "This Is Us," the tears were already flowing when it was revealed that one of Jack and Rebecca's triplets didn't make it through childbirth. Struck by a moment of inspiration in grieving, the Pearsons decide to adopt a baby who had been abandoned and showed up at the hospital on the same day.
Jack's fate First, the show dropped the bombshell that Jack has been gone for so long that Randall's kids consider someone else entirely their "grandpa." We shouldn't have been surprised to learn, then, that the Pearson family patriarch is actually dead, and had been since about 2006. Kate seems to have a hard time moving on from it, still maintaining a tradition of watching every Steelers game with her dad -- even if it's just his ashes left now.
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The truth about William We knew William was dying pretty early on, but that didn't make him trustworthy. It took Beth gently chiding Randall about his inherent goodness and William's shady behavior to get the truth out on the table: William isn't still doing drugs, he's been disappearing for hours on end each day in order to take the bus to his house to feed his cat. "Well now I feel like a bitch," Beth quipped, and we wept.
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Toby's past The heartbreaking moments don't belong exclusively to the Pearsons. When Kate pushes, Toby reveals exactly why he's not with his gorgeous ex-wife Josie anymore: Turns out, she was so horrible to him that he became suicidal and gained 100 pounds in a year. Ouch.
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Kate the princess After being ostracized by her friends in the cruelest way possible, little Kate's spirit was brought back to life thanks to a bit of magical storytelling by Jack, who hands her his t-shirt and tells her she can be anything she wants when she wears it, though she's always a princess in his eyes. Who's chopping onions around here?
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Rebecca and Shakespeare Finding herself unable to bond with her adopted son after the death of one of her triplets, Rebecca seeks out the baby's birth father instead of telling her husband. Their heart-to-heart, where she refused his request for visitation and he gives her the inspiration to name the baby Randall, is one of the show's most gut-wrenching so far.
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Randall just wants to fit in When the Pearsons discover little Randall is gifted, it seems like a great thing, until Jack gets it out of him that he's been pretending to be not as smart as he is in order to fit in with his siblings.
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Jack's sacrifice The Pearson patriarch decides to take the plunge and leave his steady job to open his own business - just as they get news that Randall is so smart he should attend a pricey private school. In the end, Jack puts his family first, taking a promotion he never wanted so his kids can thrive. Best. Dad. Ever.
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Kate's deepest fears Though Olivia's delivery was less than ideal or compassionate, a revelatory weekend at their family cabin forces Kate to admit what she's truly afraid of: That even if she goes through with gastric bypass and loses weight, she'll still be unhappy.
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Randall's trip down memory lane Only on this show could a bad hallucinogenic mushroom take the characters and the audience on a gut-wrenching emotional journey. As Randall reels from his mother's betrayal, a vision of his dead father takes him down memory lane to reveal just how hard and lonely it must have been for his mother to keep such a secret to herself.
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Toby's last Christmas? Just as Toby and Kate were joyfully reunited just in time for Christmas, he collapses, and ends up on an operating table. Cue hiatus and more potential heartbreak for the Pearsons.
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William chooses to die After grappling with why he has such a problem with William spending so much time with Jesse, the father-son duo have another heartbreaking conversation, where William confesses he can feel the end is coming, and he'd like to stop chemo so he can enjoy his final days.
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Kate and the rage-drums During a seemingly hokey fat camp exercise, Kate taps into some very real emotions, mostly about her father's death, and lets out a primal scream so heartbreaking we still can't get it out of our minds and ears.
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Trouble in paradise After an episode where their happy marriage was contrasted to Miguel and Shelly's crumbling relationship, Jack and Rebecca were left off on an ominous note when she revealed she wants to go on tour with her band -- led by ex-boyfriend Ben.
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Randall's breakdown
The stress of work and William's impending death finally takes its toll on Randall, who has a full-blown breakdown. The scene is made all the more emotional when the ever-self-absorbed Kevin picks up on the strain in his brother's voice and races to his side to cradle him in his arms as he cries.
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All of "Memphis"
William finally passes at the end of this heartbreaking episode, which centers around his road trip home to Memphis with Randall. The hour is spent going between flashbacks of his youth and the road he traveled to leave his mother and music career behind and get mixed up with drugs. Randall is with his biological father when he passes and the drive back home is both the most cathartic and heart-wrenching scene we've ever watched.
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Jack and Rebecca's separation
Though the break was ultimately a very short one, as Rebecca soon came to pick Jack up from Miguel's place, the end of Season 1 left us on a cliffhanger as we wondered if and when Rebecca and Jack would reunite after a huge fight. Trying to keep from bawling for the next few months as we awaited the answer at the beginning of Season 2 was our biggest problem over the summer hiatus.
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Kate's miscarriage
This episode packed more of a punch than anyone was ready for, even though we found out at the end of the previous episode what was to come. Watching Kate lose her and Toby's baby in "Number Two" and the different ways they chose to grieve was truly a once in a lifetime TV experience. But it was definitely something we only wanna witness once.
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Jack's father's death
To say that Jack and his father had a tumultuous relationship would be an understatement. But when we saw him on his death bed we forgot all about their horrible history and watched Kate and Rebecca say goodbye to a man they never knew because Jack wasn't there.
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Kevin and Sophie's break-up
Seeing as we have yet to witness how these two lovebirds originally split, it was really hard to watch Kevin dump Sophie due to his new addiction. The two were high school sweethearts who divorced at a young age after Kevin cheated and we don’t know what went wrong but after this upsetting scene we don’t know if fans can handle seeing the first go round.
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Kevin's addiction
Kevin developed an addiction to painkillers and alcohol following an on-set injury at the beginning of Season 2. After watching “Number One” and learning how his already bad knee was ruined during a football game — thus ending his dream career — the tears started flowing and haven’t let up since.
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Drunk driving with a stowaway
Remember the time that Kevin was upset and drove off from his brother Randall’s house drunk? Yep, that was a dumb move. But what made it even worse was the little stowaway in the backseat. Yes, the midseason finale of Season 2 saw Kevin behind the wheel of a car while under the influence with Tess right there behind him. She snuck away when Randall and Beth were saying goodbye to Deja, a teenager they were fostering who was taken back by her biological mother. While we knew before the end of the episode everyone was safe (thank goodness), Kevin was arrested on a DWI -- in front of his niece. And of course Randall and Beth were waiting at home to kill him. Now these were probably some rage tears.
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Rehab scene/The Big Three "bench moment"
“The Fifth Wheel” delivers one of the most tense moments of the series, when Rebecca and the Big Three enter a family therapy session while Kevin is in rehab. Kevin shares that he felt like a fifth wheel growing up because Kate had Jack and Randall had Rebecca (this is a scenario anyone who comes from a three-sibling family can probably relate to). Rebecca ends up admitting that yes, she was closer with Randall because he was “easier” to parent. It’s a tough blow, and everyone leaves the session pretty pissed at each other. But the siblings convene later on in the episode to look back objectively on their childhood and all is well, leaving us touched and sad all at once.
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The Sidekicks/"Star Wars" speech
Meanwhile, Toby, Beth and Miguel decide to get some drinks, as they are not invited to family therapy. They bond over feeling excluded from the crazy-tight bond the remaining Pearsons have with one another, and compare themselves to the side characters in “Star Wars.” But when Beth and Toby start to talk about how they were never able to meet Jack, and feel like his kids put him on a pedestal, Miguel sweeps in in Jack’s defense and shuts that conversation down -- reminding us, again, of the giant hole Jack left after his death.
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Kate's dog issues
Kate and that dog. Have you ever seen someone more conflicted about something so adorable? We first learned of Kate’s serious issues with canine’s when she just couldn’t bring herself to adopt the cutest furry friend for her fiancé Toby, who desperately wants a dog of his own. She got so close to picking him up, but then bailed, prompting a heavy flood of tears from viewers. However, she ultimately decided making Toby happy was more important than her issues and the tears came even harder when she revealed the dog, Audio, to his new owner.
We'd like to start out by saying sorry to both the fans and Crock-Pot for the amount of anguish this cost them. At the end of the episode "That'll Be the Day" -- which recounts Jack's last day alive, we find out that a very old slow cooker with a faulty switch was what ignited the fire that burned down the Pearson family home. Yes, Crock-Pot took the heat for that one to the point where Milo Ventimiglia and the show graciously stepped in to do a promo for the product to prove it was totally Jack Pearson-approved.
Jack’s cause of death/Rebecca keeping it together for the kids
In the big post-Super Bowl episode (aptly named “Super Bowl Sunday”), we finally learn the true cause of Jack’s death. Jack and the rest of the family make it out of the house fire safely, and Jack even had time to go back in to save Kate’s dog and a few other family keepsakes. But that’s just what turned out to be his downfall: he inhaled too much smoke, causing him to have a heart attack at the hospital and die unexpectedly. Mandy Moore delivers the most heartbreaking scene at the end of the episode when Jack dies: not only do we see her break down completely in the hospital, but she’s able to pull it together to tell the kids. The whole thing left us crying into our leftover guacamole from the Super Bowl.
This whole episode was even harder to watch than “Super Bowl Sunday.” We’ve been ugly crying at every mention of Jack’s death since Season 1, but seeing Dr. K console Rebecca not only emphasized the fact that Jack was dead but reminded us that he was able to finally find love again after his wife died. When Rebecca took the kids to Jack’s tree, and then they all agree to go to the Bruce Springsteen concert in his honor, we were a puddle on the floor.
Leave it to "This Is Us" to make an episode about bachelor and bachelorette parties about sibling love. In "Vegas, Baby" we see why Kate has never really become close with her sister-in-law Beth. Turns out, Kate and Randall were very close as teens -- Lean Pocket and "Sex & the City" viewing parties, of course -- and when he met Beth, she knew she'd "lose him." Of course Randall reassures his sister their bond just can't be broken. Also, he wasn't really a "Sex & the City" fan, he just watched it to spend time with Kate. Aww.
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That Deja episode
What is it with falling in love with the grandparents on this show? In “This Big, Amazing, Beautiful Life,” we get to learn a lot more about Deja’s backstory and tough upbringing--and meet her amazing grandma Joyce, who mostly takes care of her because her mom, Shauna, was only 16 years old when she had Deja. When Joyce dies, it marks the point where things really start to go downhill for Deja and Shauna, and they end up sleeping in their car until Beth and Randall find them. When Shauna realizes Deja can have a better life living with the Pearsons and leaves in the middle of the night, it broke us all.
In the Season 2 finale, Kate daydreams that instead of her own wedding, her parents Jack and Rebecca renew their vows. Fans got a glimpse of what old Jack would look like as he tells present-day Rebecca, "Where did the time go, Bec?" Well, obviously we can't even.
At Toby and Kate's wedding, Toby's mom mistakes Deja for Randall's biological daughter, and let's just say the mistake does not make her happy. Deja's already upset, given that her mom's parental rights have been revoked, and she takes out her emotions by taking a baseball bat to her foster dad's fancy car -- which hits us right in the heart strings.
As Kate walks down the aisle, we hear a voiceover of Jack talking to a younger "Katie-girl."
"One day, a long time from now, you're going to meet someone who's better than me," Jack tells her after she asks if she can marry him someday. "He's gonna be stronger, and handsomer, maybe better at board games than me. And when you find him, when you find that guy, that's the guy you're going to marry." But no one could be as strong and handsome as you, Jack!! Needless to say, this scene juxtaposed with Kate walking down the aisle had us in a puddle of tears.
Hold. On. We've added a third timeline to this story? Of course we have. At the very end of the Season 2 finale, we get a quick glimpse of future Tess and an older Randall says ominously, "It's time to go see her, Tess."
Tess responds that she's not ready, and Randall says he's not either -- but we are ready to find out who the mystery "her" is. The scene is cut in a way that makes us think Beth might be dying (but that was ruled out by Susan Kelechi Watson herself) or something with Deja, but we know enough by now to expect a twist. Just seeing older Tess and Randall together is enough to make us teary.
In the first episode of Season 3, Kate and Toby find out they are insufficient candidates for in vitro fertilization -- on her birthday.
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Jack and Rebecca's $9 first date
The night is a disaster due to Jack's low budget, which he doesn't want to tell Rebecca about until the very end. But when he does, all is forgiven.
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When Future Randall called Future Toby about "her"
Cause we all thought it was Kate and OMG.
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Kate gets pregnant again -- with "one shot" from IVF
That positive test brought on the waterworks.
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Kevin finds out where Jack's necklace came from
The necklace Kevin received from his dad when he broke his leg originally belonged to a Vietnamese woman who Jack helped when he was in the war. So sweet.
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Jack and Rebecca's road trip to L.A.
Oh, so many romantic moments. So many tears.
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Tess comes out to Kate -- and later to Beth and Randall
In a very special episode on a show full of very special episodes, Tess gets her first period and confesses to her aunt that she has feelings for girls. Not longer after, she comes out to her parents and it's impossible to not weep over how beautiful the moment is.
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When "Her" is finally revealed to be Rebecca
Don't pretend like hearing Future Beth say everyone was going to see "Randall's mother" didn't kill you.
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When we found out Nicky was alive
And everything changed.
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The toll Randall's campaign for city council takes on his family
We really did get worried about Randall and Beth there for a few episodes.
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When Nicky finds out Jack is dead
In his first-ever meeting with his adult niece and nephews. His subsequent first-ever meeting with Rebecca packs even more of a punch, for both Nicky and the audience.
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Beth's backstory episode
The whole thing. All of it. Her tireless effort at a teen dancing career, her dad's death, the moment she bumps into Randall at college, present-day Beth going to a dance studio. Everything.
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The whole family waits to see if Kate and her premature baby are going to be OK
The things that come out in "The Waiting Room" episode. And then Kate and Toby name their baby Jack. Wow.
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Randall and Beth's love story, juxtaposed with their current relationship issues
"R&B" forever and ever and ever.
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Kevin and Zoe breakup
Because he wants kids and Zoe knows it, so she ends it and it's really rough to watch.
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The first time we see Future Rebecca
And obviously begin to worry more about her clearly failing health.
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The reveal that Baby Jack is blind -- and an incredibly talented singer in the future
The one-two punch of the Season 4 premiere's big reveal rivaled that of the emotional rollercoaster that the series premiere took us on. That song? Tears.
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Deja and Malik's adorable young love
Their adorable ditch day in Philly was one of the sweetest teen love stories we've ever seen. Of course the real tears came when their parents tried to put the breaks on the whole thing.
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Rebecca's dad making it clear he doesn't think Jack is good enough for his daughter
We know that they make it through fine -- obviously -- but this backstory is still rough to watch.
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Nicky, Kevin and Cassidy getting sober together
Multiple moments from this arc have had us sobbing, as these three keep banding together to help each other through some really rough battles to stay clean.
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Jack getting jealous over Randall's relationship with his only Black teacher
Jack realizes he can't be everything for his son, because he isn't exactly like his son. But when he accepts this, he learns how to let Randall connect with others who can give him what he needs.
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Rebecca admitting to Randall her memory is getting so bad she needs help
After an entire Thanksgiving episode in which she gets lost -- and we find out that is actually a flashforward to a point when the problem has gotten much more series.
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Blind Baby Jack can see lights and shadows
And Toby and Kate's joy over this revelation made us unable to see almost anything through the tears.
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Randall's intruder
When a man breaks into Randall's home while Beth and the girls are sleeping, it frightens him to his core, and even though nobody got hurt, Randall can't shake it. Eventually, he reaches a breaking point where he beats up a mugger on the street. He ultimately realizes he needs to get some help and starts therapy soon after.
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Kevin attending Sophie's mother's funeral
We were so proud of Kev when he showed up at his ex-wife's mother's funeral to pay his respects and ended up taking her for a drive and a showing of "Good Will Hunting" to help her catch her breath. The other tragedy here being that Kevin obviously still loves her, but took her right back to her fiancee.
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Every scene with Marc and Teen Kate
We HATE that kid and we're glad Rebecca, Kevin and Randall managed to save Kate from him before anything truly horrible happened to her. But every moment we had to watch him belittling her and mentally abusing her was another moment we felt like crying.
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The Big Three's big cabin trip
When it's revealed that Kate and Randall know about Rebecca's increasing memory problems and possible Alzheimer's -- and Kevin doesn't. Poor Kev, always the last to know. The siblings do reconcile in a real tearjerker of a moment, when they open up a time capsule they buried with their parents when they were kids.
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Kevin and Rebecca's special day
Rebecca is avoiding getting the test results that will tell her just how bad her memory is by spending a day having fun with her son Kevin. It's a beautiful set of scenes, but they only last so long though, and then we learn the truth: she has mild cognitive impairment likely linked to Alzheimer’s.
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Kevin and Randall's fight about Rebecca
When the boys are with their mother in NYC for the premiere of Kevin's movie, they get into a heated debate about what's the right way to handle her condition, with Randall wanting her to do a nine-month clinical trial in St. Louis and Kevin wanting her to stay with her family for what time she has left with her memory. Watching these two bicker is sometimes cute -- this wasn't.
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Randall's "what if?" therapy session
Randall imagines what life would have been like if he had saved Jack from dying by preventing him from going back into the fire. Randall explores these two different versions of his life -- one rosier, one darker -- during a therapy session that brings him to a revelation about how he never truly confronted Rebecca for her keeping that secret from him about William. By the end of the episode, he's called his mother and asked her to do one thing for him: go do the clinical trial. And she agrees.
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Kevin and Randall's fight
The Season 4 finale ended with Kevin telling Randall that the worst day of his life wasn't when their father died, it was the day his parents brought Randall home. Ouch.
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Deaths, births, slow-cookers — where does it end?!?
Now that we're in the fifth season of "This Is Us," the only thing Pearson-family fans can rely on more than the fact that they're sure to get at least one twist or turn when they tune in each week is that they are definitely going to shed at least one -- and usually more -- tear per episode. TheWrap has rounded up the show's biggest tearjerker moments -- both good and bad -- so far. Obviously, spoilers ahead.
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