‘SNL’ Star Pete Davidson Says He Has Borderline Personality Disorder: ‘This Whole Year Has Been a F–ing Nightmare’

“This has been the worst year of my life,” comedian says of his struggles with mental issues

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Well, this is no laughing matter.

“Saturday Night Live” funnyman Pete Davidson, who in March said that he’d quit drugs and was “happy and sober for the first time in eight years,” appeared on Marc Maron’s “WTF” podcast on Monday, detailing his stint in rehab last year and divulging that he’s been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder.

“I found out I have BPD, which is borderline personality disorder,” Davidson, who told Maron that he entered rehab in December, said. “One of my psychiatrists [diagnosed me] … He was always saying before this big meltdown, ‘You’re probably bipolar or borderline, we’re just going to have to figure it out.’”

Davidson said he was diagnosed months after rehab, when he found himself still struggling and returned to his doctors. According to Davidson, he chose to enter rehab after he “starting having these mental breakdowns.”

“I’ve been a pothead forever,” Davidson said. “I started, around October, I would say, September last year, started having these mental breakdowns where I would, like, freak out … and then not remember what happened after … Blind rage.”

“I was under the assumption that maybe it was the weed. I never really did any other drugs, so I was like, ‘I’m gonna try to go to rehab … I was like, ‘Maybe that’ll be helpful,’” Davidson added. “So I go and I get off weed. And they told me there, they’re like, ‘You might be bipolar,’ and I was like, ‘OK.’ ‘So we’re gonna try you on these meds.’ And then I got out, and then I started smoking weed again …. and I’m on meds.”

Davidson, 23, who lost his father in the Sept. 11, 2001 terrorist attacks in New York, told Maron that the loss sits at the core of his mental issues.

“My big thing is trust,” Davidson said. “One day he was here and then next day, they’re gone.”

While the “Saturday Night Live” personality is now receiving treatment, he added that he’s still “been having a lot of problems.”

“It is working, slowly but surely,” Davidson noted. “I’ve been having a lot of problems. This whole year has been a f–ing nightmare. This has been the worst year of my life, for getting diagnosed with this and trying to figure out how to learn with this and live with this … it’s getting better but it’s taking a while.”