During her sit-down with DeGeneres, Lohan — currently the subject of a reality series on Oprah Winfrey‘s OWN — admits that her previous stays at rehabilitation facilities weren’t exactly earnest attempts to get well.
In fact, the actress says, she was “just going with the motions” in an effort to stay out of the slammer.
“I think that this was the first time that I was able to you know, when I went to treatment this time, when I went to Cliffside, I really wanted a moment for myself and I learned a lot of different tools and things that I didn’t in the past,” Lohan tells DeGeneres during the interview.
“In the past a lot of it people don’t know this, but I was sent to rehab to avoid you know, them trying to put me in jail. So it wasn’t something that I necessarily wanted or was ready for,” Lohan adds. “It was something that it was kind of just going with the motions. And this was the first time where I went to Shawn Holley, my lawyer, and said look I need some time. I need to figure something out.”
Elsewhere during the interview, Lohan discusses her relationship with Winfrey. (Lohan’s OWN reality show — sorry, “docuseries” — tracks the actress’ relocation from Los Angeles to New York, and her effort to remain sober and get her life back on track.)
Saying that Winfrey has been “so amazing to me,” Lohan added, “she got me really into meditation. I mean that … she’s one of the reasons why that’s such a big part of my life. She’s just been a really strong guiding light and force to me as a friend and someone that I admire.”
Watch Lohan discuss her numerous trips to rehab below.