“I hated being ‘all right,'” comedian says of his lifelong disinterest in killing himself
Poor Louis C.K.; despite being pudgy, balding, middle-aged and under a seemingly ever-present black cloud of pessimism, he just can't work up the interest to kill himself.
And he's not happy with himself about it.
The “Louie” star cracks wise about the yuk-fest topic of suicide in an interview in the May issue of GQ, on stands April 29. In the issue, he reveals that he's never been suicidal — a fact that has left him “a little disappointed.”
“No, I've never been suicidal. But I've wanted to be,” CK tells the magazine. “It never stopped getting worse. I remember thinking, ‘This is too much for me to handle.’ I wanted to give up. I knew it was my right to. But then a few minutes would go by and I'd realize, I'm still here. In other words, there was no escape from it. And I'd be a little disappointed at not being truly suicidal. I hated being ‘all right.'”
Elsewhere in the interview, C.K. — whose show returns to FX for a fourth season May 5 — expounds on the importance of discomfort.
“You've got to embrace discomfort. It's the only way you can put yourself in situations where you can learn, and the only way you can keep your senses fresh once you're there,” C.K. posits.
Keep reaching for that rainbow, funnyman.
Read C.K.'s full interview with GQ here.